We have this tree in our backyard that’s actually two different
trees. Three quarters of the tree has beautiful
pink blossoms, with leaves that are dark green and red with little berries that
arrive during the summer months. But
there is one quarter of the tree that is completely different. It has white blossoms in spring and bright
green leaves. Last fall while standing
on my back deck I noticed some rather large things hanging off that part of the
tree. When I went out to investigate, I found
apples, as big as you please dangling from the branches! Much to my surprise! We’ve lived in this house for six years and
have never had apples before but there they were.
As I looked at the divided tree, I couldn’t help but think of my own
life and how I can be so divided. There
are areas in my life where I produce a decent amount of fruit and if you were
to only see that side of me you would easily think my whole life was godly and
fruitful. But take a look from another
direction and you would see a completely different person.
That’s the side I don’t let too many other people see, but it’s there
just the same. God sees it. He knows.
It’s the selfish, bitter, prideful, resentful, self-seeking side that I like to
ignore and pretend doesn’t exist.
But unfortunately, it’s there just the same.
There’s a reason the Bible warns against being divided.
Do not waver,
for a person with divided loyalty is as
unsettled as a wave of the sea that is blown and tossed by the wind. Such people should not expect to receive
anything from the Lord. Their loyalty is divided between God and
the world, and they are unstable in everything they do. James 1.6-8
It’s easy to justify and rationalize my behavior
by only looking at the fruitful portion of my life. It’s beautiful. God is using me. I’m effective.
Then I think of my tree.
What if the whole tree was full of apples? What if I could enjoy not just one or two
apples but a whole bushel full? The
beauty of the tree is diminished by its dividedness.
And my beauty is diminished by my divided
heart. God wants all of me, not just
part. He wants a heart totally
surrendered to Him. In Matthew 6.24,
Jesus says, “No one can serve two
masters. For you will hate one and love
the other; you will be devoted to one and despise the other.”
A heart with divided loyalty, isn’t loyal at all.
All the justifying in the world won’t make my
heart devoted. Only complete surrender will
remove the dividedness overtaking my heart.
Dear God,
Here I am again waving my white flag of surrender.
Thank You for being so patient and
persevering in my fickle following. I’m
done doing battle with You. I’m done
following my own way, while pretending to follow You. Remove. Remake. Remold. I’m Yours.
Amen.
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