I have been on a journey of prayer and fasting for the past forty days. It has been a powerful experience in my life. My expectations of what God would do and what
He actually has done are in stark contrast with one another. I
haven’t had huge momentous mind blowing moments but as I look back on these
days, I see God reforming me. Remaking
me.
Isaiah
43.18-19 (NIV) says, “Forget the former things;
do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a NEW thing! Now it
springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.”
God
is doing a NEW thing, in my life, as I learn to sit in His presence and wait on
Him. If you had asked me before all this
happened if I had a prayer life I would’ve unequivocally said, “YES!”
But
as I’ve traveled this road of waiting and stillness, I have sensed that my
prayer life has been a wasteland of distraction, confusion, and
disillusionment. It’s been too easy to
let other things take precedence (even good things). It’s been too easy to let doubt creep in and keep
me from falling on my knees before God. It’s been too easy to allow busyness to overthrow
my life and never carve out moments to sit in His presence.
These
forty days have compelled me to forge new habits, instill new practices and
change old behaviors.
I
find myself falling to my knees on a regular basis, turning off the radio in the car and spending
time with Him in the stillness and quietness of my drive. I carve out time when I’m the busiest to meet
with Him, knowing that I need Him most in those moments. I wake up and invite God into my day and on
it goes. What was I doing before? So much wasted time! So much squandered energy!
BUT, God
is doing a NEW thing in my life. It is
springing up out of the wasteland of my feeble prayer life.
Isn’t that what God does best? The impossible! Life from death. Hope from despair. Joy from sorrow. Beauty from ashes.
Have you made bad decisions that have left your life a wasteland? Are you sitting in the ruins of a wasted life wondering if there is any hope? Take heart!
God is the God of the impossible! Nothing is too big for Him.
“Forget about what’s happened; don’t keep going over old history. Be alert, be present. I’m about to do something brand-new. It’s bursting out! Don’t you see it? There it is! I’m making a road through the desert, rivers in the badlands.” (Isaiah 43.18-19 MSG)
He
is doing a NEW thing! Do you perceive
it?
Lord, give us eyes to see! Ears to hear!
Feet that will follow! And hearts
open to the work of Your surgeon hands. May
we never forget what You have done. May
we continue to follow in Your ways. Keep us faithful to the end. Amen.
I do perceive it. I find myself for days at a time giving up control of my life. Then I take it back again. But just to know the difference--feel the difference--it makes me journey on.
ReplyDelete